A new leaf

HI again,
ya its a long time since i last blogged... The life has changed a lot from that time... the company which i mentioned as too professional has since then stopped recruitment and m on the strangleholds of loosing my only placement...

Life has also changed in the sense that i'm gonna leave my college and start a life of doom soon... All expectations are mounting and all friends in our class are really really desperate in searching for a job...

Family problems followed after the placements and my singular family broke and crumbled...
The problem grew bigger and bigger and before we could guess there was a invisible wall built between our 2 families... my dads dream came crashing down... the famous joint family dream we all saw..

no1 is to be blamed here... everything was the situations fault but i'm sure the things would have been different if my uncle could hav taken things more positively...

Anyways, lets come back to the college... Now as the college is about to end, i guess there has been an outflow of emotions though not as much... i guess there is a dam of emotions ready to be broken and flood the memories of the past spent here...

The days spent in this so called jail were really the precious 4years of our life... learn to cope up with friends... let things go by... share things... psychology and mentality were things and subjects though not taught in engineering but neways are an integral part of it...

As my friends prepare to depart to their native places i feel lonelier than the rest... no place to go as of now... will hav to stay in this filthy area with all the grime for my company... Suddenly this entire bubble is going to burst and we will be called ENGINEERS..... for the gud or the bad....

Today i feel really emotional though i myself cant acknowledge the reason... Something about the things which people wrote in the diary i gav is also eating me up... Theres more of fiction in them then reality.... it makes the entire sacrifice i gave in the name flexibility seem waste...

I jus ask....
Do people hate some1 better
Or is it that i'm a goner really...

all said and done... There are still people who are with me... suddenly the cold shoulders of people I misunderstood feel a lot warmer...

i hav seen many faces... The people i admired and respected really betrayed my trust (though not all of them...)... Then there are some people who make me think i shouldn't hav gone deep in my friendships...

The best thing i tested and certify is that Girls r the reason for every fight between men... C u soon......